Thursday, April 27, 2006
ping pong is addictive.
omg. i have a new hobby. playing PING PONG. its a good hobby i guess. i pratically play it everyday these days. thanks b for coming to my hse the last two days to accompany me. i blame u for this for making me addicted to ping pong! hahaha..just kidding. its a good addiction though. i feel weird if i dont play it for one day. hehe..nah still can tahan but kinda miss it la.
today, someone told me to forgive and forget. can anyone teach me how to forgive and forget? i cant forgive a person when i cant even forgive myself. how do we learn to forgive ourselves? how do we learn to forgive someone else? how do let go of the things that hurt us or someone else? i want to learn to forgive and forget. i want to learn how to let go of things when is the past. i dont want to keep thinking about the small little things and making it into a big deal. but i cant seem to do it. can anyone teach me how to do it? i really want to learn.
btw, b, im sorry. i didnt mean to hurt u. but yesterday with all the words u said to me is really hurtful. we both said hurtful words to each other. i want to let go of it. i want to forgive u but i cant forgive myself. im sorry. can u find a place to forgive me?
p.s. i miss u.
zoe. outie at 9:46 PM
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Sunday, April 16, 2006
broken little pieces.
everything is falling apart. small pieces of my life is falling. falling and falling. one after another. its hard to keep it together. i cant keep it together. im trying my best to keep it but im not tough enough. im not strong enough. u cant expect me to pick it up after a thunderstorm. the little pieces is everywhere.
i want someone to put it together for me. pick up the little pieces and put it back. like brand new. start new. i need someone. i need that someone to help me through it. a someone that would go through anything for me. a someone who would listen to me. a someone who will lend me a shoulder to cry or lean on.
zoe. outie at 7:37 PM
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Saturday, April 15, 2006
u know what hurt the most? knowing that u take your friends as your friends and trust them but in the end u found out that actually your friends doesnt like u and backstabbing u all the while.
if your friends are really your true friends, they would actually tell it straight to u about what they dont like about u or what they heard about u. they would never keep anything from you. even though those things really sting in your heart but we have to know the truth. they would be there to help u through out everything no matter what.
i dont see why some ppl or everyone wears a mask around. not showing who they really are. if your friends really take u as who u are, why pretend to be someone else? they would accept it the way you are. just be yourself. if u want to change, change it for the better, change it for yourself. u dont have to change it for someone else.
anyway, went to pc fair in klcc with samuel, elaine, michelle, and gary. cant believe we walked for so long. we went there around 1 something till 6 something. we just kept walking and walking. i love the speakers section. i want to get one myself but i dont have the money to buy and my mum would kill me if she knows about it. i love the sound systems though some of them are really good. i love one of them the most. the one samuel bought. hehe..he also kinda agreed that the sound system is good. im not sure why it does but it just attract my attention. we walked the whole thing for 2 rounds. and its really huge okay that place. end up we all bought, 3 4 webcams, 2 pendrive, a notebook, headphones, and speakers. got home quite late. was darn exhausted.
anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONG CHI JIAN!!
zoe. outie at 4:35 PM
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Thursday, April 13, 2006
gosh. i feel lost. i feel confused. i feel sad.
what am i suppose to do?
am i suppose to do that? or am i suppose to do this?
is like if i take a step its gonna have a big consequences.
its so stressing to know which is right or which is wrong.
if only u would understand how i feel in my shoes.
zoe. outie at 9:58 PM
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
things that happened few days ago.
well not exactly few days ago. its more to like weeks ago? hahaha..no la not weeks ago. ah darn it! i'll just start on a day before april's fool day.
a day before april's fool day.mum decided to have a lil birthday party for my dad. yup his bday is on the april's fool day. she want to have it on saturday but then we'll have to go back to ipoh on the sunday morning to pay respect to our loved ones. i was at college till the dodgeball was over. my gosh. its quite interesting game/sport to watch. after watching it, i have to rush here and there to get my dad's present and the cake. got him a calvin klein cologne. and bought the cake at bangsar (oh no i forgot whats the name of the shop edi). bought tiramisu. the cake there is really good. hahaha..anyway, rushed home bathed and helped mum around. dad received alot of red wines as a birthday gifts. yes including the ones from samuel and gein. hehe..yup they came for my dad's bday party. elaine came too. and she gave two ties to my dad. hahaha..it all went well for my dad. he is happy. and im happy to see him happy too. we drank some wines and few glasses of whisky. well i drank whisky and they drank brandy. it all end well that night.
april's fool day.went back to ipoh. dad decided to go back early so he could have dinner with my grandma and my other relatives. how sweet of him right. hahaha..so yea went back there had dinner then went back and sleep. the next day. oh my gosh. i got darker! hahahah..try praying from 10 something in the morning till 3 something in the afternoon. standing under the hot sun with just a short sleeve. without a cap or a hat. went back to kl after dinner.
8th of april.went to 1u to celebrate my fren's bday. he invited alot of ppl which i dont really know but i see them around in college. anyway, went there to watch ice age 2. my gosh. that show is so funny. hehe..after movie, we walked around. and finally they decided to cut the cake at the food court. that cake was bake by someone. not sure whats her name. but its good. real good but i was not really in the cheese cake mood. hahhaa..sorry. wanted to play bowling but it was all full as there were a competition going on there. so i decided to go home. went home after finding out who blocked my car. it was a guy. i didnt see his namecard there. i swear it wasnt there! anyway, thank u dear for helping me out. hehe..muax!
11th april.my gosh. we were suppose to study in the library. we as in me, gary, samuel and elaine. end up we wasted an hour plus in the cyber cafe dota-ing. swt. but i have to say its kinda fun.
12th april.HAPPY 4th MONTH ANNIVERSARY B!!! muax! love ya!
well thats about it. oh yea..suet i know we were hurt before last time. i just want to say sorry for what i did. didnt mean to but i was really at that limit where i cant stand it anymore. hope u find a place in your heart to forgive me though im not sure why the rest treated u that way.
zoe. outie at 9:38 PM
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Sunday, April 09, 2006
randomness.
wow..its been a long time since i last update my blog. oh well. im blogging now at least.
life's like a rollercoaster. its never all the way up. if it is then where will the fun be right? okay, im not saying that its good to have downs but having downs in our life make us a stronger person. make us a better person. we learn from our mistakes and get back on with our life and make sure we dont repeat the same mistakes again. sometimes when things get rough and u think the whole world is against u, u feel like u're breaking apart and cant hold yourself together, look beside u. open your eyes and see around. you're friends are always there for u. u just have to open ur eyes and know that they are actually there. though they might not know what u r going through, but they will always be there for u, a shoulder to cry on, or an ear to listen to u. just let it all out. dun keep it inside of u. open your eyes, and see that there are actually other happiness around u that u're friends can bring.
no one is worth your tears. if that person is worth it, they will never want to make u cry. and they will always make u happy.
okay, so there's this person called "kelly calarkson" tagged on my board. hahaha..darn funny. if its her, her english wont be that bad. hahaha..how i wish its the really "kelly clarkson" that msged on my tag board. hahahaha..
ooo..dad is coming home soon. i miss him alot.
exams are coming soon. lets see its 5 weeks for us? those that are sitting for accounting. hehe..oh man..die dot com. im so screwed for everything.
i miss him. i miss my dear. where did he go? dont ask me..i suddenly miss him alot. well i do miss him but miss him more now. yeaa..so i miss him alot.
ganbatte everyone! study hard for exams! study hard then enjoy life later! hehehe..
zoe. outie at 5:14 PM
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