Monday, January 23, 2006
trust.
is it really that hard to trust one person? all i'm asking u is to trust me. believe what i said. i would never want to lie to u. what would i get if i lie to u? nothing. i would be lying to myself too. i just need your trust. u know how hurtful it is to know that u dont trust me. u have to keep asking where am i? why this? why that? and worst of all u have to ask her about me. do u know it really broke my heart to know that u dont trust me anymore. i didnt do anything behind your back. i wont do anything stupid thats for sure. i wont do anything that i'm not suppose to. coz i myself know that is too young to do so. and i'm not dumb okay.
i just need your trust. i want u to trust me in what i'm doing and all. like i used to say that trust is important in any kind of relationship. why cant u just trust me? i told u the truth about everything but yet u still dont trust me and get someone to spy on me? gosh. what a nice way to do so. u know sometimes i'm wondering why do i ever bother telling u when u dont even trust me. everyday i wake up hoping that u will gain abit trust towards me but no. i guess i was wrong.
its not easy going through my life knowing that my loved one do not trust me. suspecting me. i hate what we are going through now. cant we just talk through about everything? i would tell u everything. whatever u want to know. i would. sometimes i teared thinking and knowing that u dont trust me anymore. it hurts.
zoe. outie at 9:13 PM
