Tuesday, November 08, 2005
gosh some people just dont get it. its hard enough being a friend for those that u love and now seeing them hurt and u feel like u cant do anything but to just be angry at one of them. have u ever thought that the other person is hurting as much as that person too? i was in that position before. my own bestfriend telling other people that i'm taking her boyfriend away. i was hurt too that time. its hard. i wanted someone to listen to me and understand me but no one could. if only someone was going through the same thing as me but no one was. i was there alone. i went through it myself. i managed to coz i went up to my bestfriend and talked to her. i found out that she was hurt too. its not coz of me being close to her boyfriend. its because i never spent much time with her. its because i never really understood her what she was going through the same time. the pain where your own best friend was never there for u. the pain where your own best friend never have the time for u. its the pain where your own best friend didnt keep contact with u. both of us were hurt with all this pain. its so hurtful to try figuring her out. trying to understand her. but no she did not make the effort as i did. so now our friendship grown apart. i wish that i could turn back time and fix everything but then again we cant really do that. so for now we should actually appreciate what we have now. i think its better for both of them to solve it themselves. i wished that i could solve mine with her together but now its totally over. its better for them to talk things through so they could actually know how they feel and think about each other. well maybe to u, u'll think differently. i respect it. its not our right to say or do anything.
zoe. outie at 12:58 AM
