Friday, November 09, 2007
i'm considering to reopen back my old blog. just a thought. the new one causing alot of problem and since not alot of people will check this blog again, so i'm thinking of using it again. sigh. life is tough you know. i wish i could turn back time and stay as a kid the whole time. without worries, just play. sigh.
zoe. outie at 7:12 PM
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Friday, May 26, 2006
Closure
hmm..thinking of closing this blog.
yup i think i will.
no one reads it so its no use.
oh well.
BYE BYE bloggy.
zoe. outie at 7:09 PM
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
emo-ing now.
why some things are suppose to be that way but why is it not? feels weird.
is it dying? or am i just thinking too much?
feel shitty now. fuck.
zoe. outie at 10:42 PM
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Sunday, May 14, 2006
oh oh before i forgot
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!!!!!there are times when i hate her,
because she dont let me do what i want,
because she is not being reasonable,
and also because she thinks that she is right,
but thinking about it,
all her intention was to protect me,
she just want to give the best to me,
something that she couldnt get when she was young,
she work day and night,
just so that we could all live in a healthy environment,
no matter how much i hate her at times,
deep down inside me i know that i love her alot.
i would never want to trade my mum with anyone's mum.
im sure everyone think that their mum cooks the best food, but i think my mum cook the bestest best food ever. well that is to me la. she knows how to cook variety foods. from western to chinese to korean. but not jap yet. hehe..
she owns her own business and she is successful in it.
but most important she is successful in being the best mum ever!
she would provide the best for us.
sometimes it hurts me to see her tear.
she teared because she is tired.
tired of working so hard.
but yet she still does.
well, mum i'll do something good in return.
i love u mummy!
zoe. outie at 2:25 AM
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just something random.
hmm..should i close down my blog? or should i just leave it that way?
it seems like no one reads it. or maybe its because of me. lazy to blog..haha..
well cant blame me, exams are coming real soon..hmm..lets see in a day time! oh my gosh! panic wei!! yes, im retaking accounting 1. coz i sucked at it. but this time i want to get an A for it. i dont want to retake it again! then i'll be the slowpoke. hehe..
so the exams countdown is on till exams are over. then there's so many things i could do.
hmm..i think im going to look for a job. what job should i get? waitress? or some salesperson? or work at my dad's place? i dont know. still long more way to go.
then there's the A-level ball. should i go or should i not?
then there's the holidays with my loved ones. more partying and getting wasted. well i wish. hahaha..i wouldnt want to get wasted.
im tired. im so tired of studying. someone pls help me!!! zuyi u can do it! its just few days of exams. suffer now then enjoy later! okay i can do it!! hahahaha
dont mind me i just feel like typing whatever is in my mind.
hmm..thinking about it..i miss my friends. though it feels like we're not the same anymore, but i have to admit that i miss them. i miss every single minute spent with them. never regret knowing them.
okay its time to hit back to my books.
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!!!!
zoe. outie at 2:14 AM
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Thursday, April 27, 2006
ping pong is addictive.
omg. i have a new hobby. playing PING PONG. its a good hobby i guess. i pratically play it everyday these days. thanks b for coming to my hse the last two days to accompany me. i blame u for this for making me addicted to ping pong! hahaha..just kidding. its a good addiction though. i feel weird if i dont play it for one day. hehe..nah still can tahan but kinda miss it la.
today, someone told me to forgive and forget. can anyone teach me how to forgive and forget? i cant forgive a person when i cant even forgive myself. how do we learn to forgive ourselves? how do we learn to forgive someone else? how do let go of the things that hurt us or someone else? i want to learn to forgive and forget. i want to learn how to let go of things when is the past. i dont want to keep thinking about the small little things and making it into a big deal. but i cant seem to do it. can anyone teach me how to do it? i really want to learn.
btw, b, im sorry. i didnt mean to hurt u. but yesterday with all the words u said to me is really hurtful. we both said hurtful words to each other. i want to let go of it. i want to forgive u but i cant forgive myself. im sorry. can u find a place to forgive me?
p.s. i miss u.
zoe. outie at 9:46 PM
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Sunday, April 16, 2006
broken little pieces.
everything is falling apart. small pieces of my life is falling. falling and falling. one after another. its hard to keep it together. i cant keep it together. im trying my best to keep it but im not tough enough. im not strong enough. u cant expect me to pick it up after a thunderstorm. the little pieces is everywhere.
i want someone to put it together for me. pick up the little pieces and put it back. like brand new. start new. i need someone. i need that someone to help me through it. a someone that would go through anything for me. a someone who would listen to me. a someone who will lend me a shoulder to cry or lean on.
zoe. outie at 7:37 PM
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Saturday, April 15, 2006
u know what hurt the most? knowing that u take your friends as your friends and trust them but in the end u found out that actually your friends doesnt like u and backstabbing u all the while.
if your friends are really your true friends, they would actually tell it straight to u about what they dont like about u or what they heard about u. they would never keep anything from you. even though those things really sting in your heart but we have to know the truth. they would be there to help u through out everything no matter what.
i dont see why some ppl or everyone wears a mask around. not showing who they really are. if your friends really take u as who u are, why pretend to be someone else? they would accept it the way you are. just be yourself. if u want to change, change it for the better, change it for yourself. u dont have to change it for someone else.
anyway, went to pc fair in klcc with samuel, elaine, michelle, and gary. cant believe we walked for so long. we went there around 1 something till 6 something. we just kept walking and walking. i love the speakers section. i want to get one myself but i dont have the money to buy and my mum would kill me if she knows about it. i love the sound systems though some of them are really good. i love one of them the most. the one samuel bought. hehe..he also kinda agreed that the sound system is good. im not sure why it does but it just attract my attention. we walked the whole thing for 2 rounds. and its really huge okay that place. end up we all bought, 3 4 webcams, 2 pendrive, a notebook, headphones, and speakers. got home quite late. was darn exhausted.
anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONG CHI JIAN!!
zoe. outie at 4:35 PM
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